I knew being a parent..a mom would be hard. But its even harder than I ever imagined. I won't lie to those ladies out there thinking about making the leap...but then there are moments that make it so worth it. To see the joy on his face when he figures out how to climb down the stairs after you show him just once...or the first time you let him try feeding himself with a spoon...all by himself...but this morning was one of those sweet moments I want to tuck away and remember when he's got a smart mouth..and his mommy isn't very cool anymore or the day I'm not his number one lady anymore...
I heard him start with that cry that I knew something was wrong before 5am...in my antihistamine stupor I climbed the stairs saying that prayer that he doesn't realize that I am NOT carrying a bottle of his delicious formula. But no this time...I picked him up and he tucks right in. His head all snuggled against my shoulder, arms tucked under him...looking for some mommy snuggle and warmth. So I started rocking him in the glider and he starts his sweet little coo of falling back asleep. But then he sits straight up, looks me straight in the eye and jibbers something so serious and then follows it with a kiss on my cheek...and then back to snuggles and soft snores. Such a sweet moment...even though I will never know exactly what he was telling me...a simple notion that he was saying thank you mom is just enough...because oh do I love that sweet little boy...
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